Off All the Anti-baby Meds

Two weeks ago I felt the impending dread of feeling bad, but now that it is here I am just really excited about trying to get pregnant.  The last week I was on a half dose of Celebrex and yesterday I didn’t take any.   I also didn’t take my sleep aid (Rozarem) last night.  Really though, I am less worried than I am excited since I am close enough to taste it.  I am feeling the change in drugs, but it seems to be really falling in perspective with my whole goal of kids.  Now that the long wait while preparing to conceive is almost over, it is time for the long wait until we get pregnant.  Of course it would be awesome to get pregnant right away, but realistically it isn’t likely, so I am not expecting it. 

Despite being on a half dose of Celebrex, last week of work went really well and I was able to work almost a full week (minus going to the airport to see Luke and Tara).  I am hoping that bodes well for the next few weeks.  However, I checked with my boss again and he reiterated that as long as I am coming back to them, there won’t be any problems. 

I am noticing this weekend that swelling may be my biggest challenge.  I can’t stand for long or do much with my hands without the swelling starting.  However, this is manageable.  Also, my joints get tired a little quicker (less walking, less moving, less talking, etc.).  However, again this is all manageable!

This week our architect came over to start measuring the house so he can work up drawings.  I am excited to see what he comes up with it.  As I was talking to him about how we will use the space and what we want, it was really fun to visualize having kids in the house!  Boy will it be a change from our current non-parent lifestyle!  As scary as that may sound in some ways, I get the warmest feeling in my heart when I think about Charles and I living in our house with OUR family!

A Rollercoaster

I haven’t posted for the last few weeks, because I haven’t been exactly sure what has been going on.  It turns out that taking the aspirin to lessen the risk of preeclampsia caused some crazy bad acid reflux.  I was confusing the symptoms with a food allergy for a while, but about 2 weeks ago, I figured out it was actually reflux and started taking steps to fix the problems (changing eating habits, stopping aspirin, doubling my acid reflux medication).  I have now got the acid reflux symptoms under control, but now I am pretty sure I have an ulcer and I have to be patient while it heals.  It is a little frustrating though.

For a while, Charles and I were worried that the pregnancy path might not be able to continue because I can’t take aspirin, an important part of preventing preeclampsia.  However, after talking to the doctor and doing a little we searching, there are clearly other options available.  The plan is to get pregnant and then see the doctor about getting on one of these other treatments.

This acid reflux thing has really increased my distrust of my body (if it wasn’t already high enough).  However, my sister in law, Tara, got me into charting my fertility cycle and I have to say it looks so normal that it gives me hope that this pregnancy thing might actually work pretty well.  I didn’t really doubt that it would go well, but this helps me worry a little less.

This last week has also included just a resurgence of my excitement of being pregnant and having a baby.  I am so looking forward to the day I find out I’m pregnant (assuming it all works).  I am even more looking forward to giving birth and having my healthy baby in my arms.  My excitement for getting pregnant is now fully winning over my fears and any potential pain.  I got to see my nephew Luke and sister-in-law Tara for a few hours today and it was such a wonderful memory of why Charles and I really want to do this. 

Today is day 1 on the half dose of Celebrex.  So far there are no obvious affects, but I am starting to be more cautious.  When we went to meet Tara and Luke today, I had my mom push me in the wheelchair, just to make sure it wouldn’t flare me up.  I am just going to keep up this caution and hopefully I will be able to ride it out pretty well.