1 month down

Well, we finished our first month of “trying” and we are not pregnant.  We didn’t expect it to happen the first time, so we aren’t disappointing.  For me, I am really pleased with how well I am feeling and I am ready for another month (not dreading it).  I am so pleasantly surprised that as the Enbrel kicks in I am actually feeling better and better. Of course, things are different without Celebrex.  The main difference is that I can’t do as much of something at once.  If I do, then my tendons flare up.  I can still do almost everything, I just need to take breaks.  I was expecting to be able to do nothing, so pausing occasionally isn’t so bad! 

I think by expecting thins to be worse, I have actually had a much better experience (anti-positive mental attitude win!).  Recently, we were in Vegas and Kevin, Tara, Charles and I went to the Bellagio Buffet.  We had called ahead and been told to expect a line of about 1 hour to even 1.5 hours.  Since were expecting it, the line was really pleasantly short and only 30 minutes.  We heard people in line around us complaining about the line because apparently they thought the best buffet in vegas wasn’t going to have a line.  Similarly, I was expecting to have massive pain that kept me from sleeping (I was especially dreading a hip flare), and instead I sleep great and only have minor inconveniences that are different from my normally drugged self.  I am so happy with it and it gives me hope that I can withstand this for as long as it takes to get pregnant.  Also, this gives me hope I will be able to breastfeed for at least 6 months (of course we’ll see, but it is looking more likely).

I’ll keep you posted.  Hopefully this will be our lucky month and we will have some good news in a few weeks, we’ll see!